Take me for who I am now
Not for who I used to be
Because I just can’t allow
You to misunderstand me
Take me for the love I feel
And for things we’ve yet to say
Not for something much less real
Or for what was yesterday
Take me for this heart of mine
Though it may often seem cold
And show me all is fine
If I give you that to hold
Take me with you down that way
That neither us has known
And taking each other we may
Never have to feel alone
Calm Within Crazy
It blows by
In such furry
What’s the hurry
You asked me once
I cannot wait
I would reply
With so little time
To find my worth
But sitting here
Amidst the frantic
I must admit
I feel strangely at peace
Only in true madness
Can such thing happen
Only when
I can learn to release
The Might to Fight
I cannot keep this incomplete
Or open wounds that never closed
I cannot steer a broken fleet
Adrift without its oars opposed
I cannot see what isn’t there
Or claim that which I never had
So how to let go this affair
That threatens to propel me mad
I must learn to let you go
You who elude me even now
I must set this anchor free
Without knowing exactly how
I must take time to redefine
What happiness holds in my mind
And feel it set safely in me
The might to fight my own confined
Harsh Words
Words spill out as ink stains severe
I scrub but they only pale
With swears and shouts I persevere
As they mock me cold and stale
And with each syllable still they spread
Filling the air with scorn
Burning their way along as I’m
Left feeling wasted and worn
Without Meaning
The world is far emptier than it pretends to be
The rising urge to sink and cry is nearing
And I feel to burst from the lack of it all
If only I could release the tears that break free
From the fear of wanting for more feeling
And yet live on to shuffle off this mortal coil
How strange the taste of sadness that’s both bitter sweet
But this unlike heartache has no meaning
And only fades with long spent sighs and salt
So how to bear this burden that with every beat
Strips away another chance of healing
And learn to rise where there has been no fall
Such A Man
What would it be
to someday someone know
who in their heart of hearts
lives the meaning of a life
their own
Dreams bigger than heads can carry
or critics disown
Holds room equal for purpose
and passion for unknown
Finds peace amidst chaos
and sense of self
in defining home
And wants such existence
that lives only up to
expectations found within
worthy and true
Such a one, such a man,
seeking to live as I do
could only be what I seek
in my heart of hearts
to be true to
Only then would be companion
worthy to take my alone
and find in common passion
worlds worthy to roam
A New Truth
Why do we only whisper
The truth we will not see
And then more proudly loudly sound
The lies we wish would be
Why disguise our underneath
Such depth hidden within
And then reveal only what’s brief
Sat simply on the skin
Why have I not yet found
Reason to take that chance
But found it easier to forget
The language of romance
And why when this is all I’ve found
Do I somehow see in you
Such heart and head akin to mine
That speaks of something true
The Death of Me
Would you love me if you knew who I was
Could you care if you saw my disgraced face
Uncovered and vulnerable
I stand naked before you
The apple of my eye
The love of my life
And the death of me
You strip me bare with your words
Stop my heart with your gaze
Hold me captive in your passion
But what can I give in return
What would you have of me
My soul is plagued by inconsistent ambivalence
My heart sealed shut with remorse
And still you fight to penetrate its walls
To see me, the real me
Do you want to see me
I fear you do
For it will be the end of you
And the death of me
A Way Out
Blades like swords come crashing
Through sheets of ice like rain
It bleeds a fresh coat of armor
To prevent the perilous pain
With winds roaring in the bosom
And drops pelting hard on the soil
It takes a patience not worth having
To wait for such ends to unfoil
So harden your reins and relinquish
Your drearisome dreams and doubt
The layers of labor shall shield you
And reveal a safer way out
It’s strong sense of self that is truly
The secret to surviving each day
And so right and ready, I rally
Heading on down the turning away
Nothing Left
What right have I to ask for more?
And what write I here to so implore?
I have nothing left
I have nothing for you
What have you to share with me
That I would ask for willingly?
You have nothing left
You have taken me through
I cannot keep this incomplete
Or open wounds that never closed
I cannot steer a broken fleet
Adrift without its oars opposed
I cannot see what isn’t there
Or claim that which I never had
So how to let go this affair
That threatens to propel me mad
I must let you go
You who elude me even now
I must set it free
Without knowing exactly how
I must redefine
What happiness holds in my mind
And feel it in me
The might to fight my own confined
What right have I to ask from you
The right to let me start anew?
You have nothing left
You have nothing on me
What have you now to share with me
That would give any guarantee?
I want nothing left
I want nothing you’d be
Poetelling 