Take Me

Take me for who I am now
Not for who I used to be
Because I just can’t allow
You to misunderstand me
 
Take me for the love I feel
And for things we’ve yet to say
Not for something much less real
Or for what was yesterday
 
Take me for this heart of mine
Though it may often seem cold
And show me all is fine
If I give you that to hold
 
Take me with you down that way
That neither us has known
And taking each other we may
Never have to feel alone

Calm Within Crazy

It blows by
In such furry
What’s the hurry
You asked me once
I cannot wait
I would reply
With so little time
To find my worth
But sitting here
Amidst the frantic
I must admit
I feel strangely at peace
Only in true madness
Can such thing happen
Only when
I can learn to release

The Might to Fight

I cannot keep this incomplete
Or open wounds that never closed
I cannot steer a broken fleet
Adrift without its oars opposed

I cannot see what isn’t there
Or claim that which I never had
So how to let go this affair
That threatens to propel me mad

I must learn to let you go
You who elude me even now
I must set this anchor free
Without knowing exactly how

I must take time to redefine
What happiness holds in my mind
And feel it set safely in me
The might to fight my own confined

Harsh Words

Words spill out as ink stains severe

I scrub but they only pale

With swears and shouts I persevere

As they mock me cold and stale

 

And with each syllable still they spread

Filling the air with scorn

Burning their way along as I’m

Left feeling wasted and worn

Without Meaning

The world is far emptier than it pretends to be
The rising urge to sink and cry is nearing
And I feel to burst from the lack of it all

If only I could release the tears that break free
From the fear of wanting for more feeling
And yet live on to shuffle off this mortal coil

How strange the taste of sadness that’s both bitter sweet
But this unlike heartache has no meaning
And only fades with long spent sighs and salt

So how to bear this burden that with every beat
Strips away another chance of healing
And learn to rise where there has been no fall

Such A Man

 

What would it be
to someday someone know
who in their heart of hearts
lives the meaning of a life
their own

Dreams bigger than heads can carry
or critics disown

Holds room equal for purpose
and passion for unknown

Finds peace amidst chaos
and sense of self
in defining home

And wants such existence
that lives only up to
expectations found within
worthy and true

Such a one, such a man,
seeking to live as I do
could only be what I seek
in my heart of hearts
to be true to

Only then would be companion
worthy to take my alone
and find in common passion
worlds worthy to roam

A New Truth

Why do we only whisper
The truth we will not see
And then more proudly loudly sound
The lies we wish would be

Why disguise our underneath
Such depth hidden within
And then reveal only what’s brief
Sat simply on the skin

Why have I not yet found
Reason to take that chance
But found it easier to forget
The language of romance

And why when this is all I’ve found
Do I somehow see in you
Such heart and head akin to mine
That speaks of something true

The Death of Me

Would you love me if you knew who I was

Could you care if you saw my disgraced face

Uncovered and vulnerable

I stand naked before you

The apple of my eye

The love of my life

And the death of me

You strip me bare with your words

Stop my heart with your gaze

Hold me captive in your passion

But what can I give in return

What would you have of me

My soul is plagued by inconsistent ambivalence

My heart sealed shut with remorse

And still you fight to penetrate its walls

To see me, the real me

Do you want to see me

I fear you do

For it will be the end of you

And the death of me

A Way Out

Blades like swords come crashing
Through sheets of ice like rain
It bleeds a fresh coat of armor
To prevent the perilous pain

With winds roaring in the bosom
And drops pelting hard on the soil
It takes a patience not worth having
To wait for such ends to unfoil

So harden your reins and relinquish
Your drearisome dreams and doubt
The layers of labor shall shield you
And reveal a safer way out

It’s strong sense of self that is truly
The secret to surviving each day
And so right and ready, I rally
Heading on down the turning away

Nothing Left

What right have I to ask for more?
And what write I here to so implore?
I have nothing left
I have nothing for you

What have you to share with me
That I would ask for willingly?
You have nothing left
You have taken me through

I cannot keep this incomplete
Or open wounds that never closed
I cannot steer a broken fleet
Adrift without its oars opposed

I cannot see what isn’t there
Or claim that which I never had
So how to let go this affair
That threatens to propel me mad

I must let you go
You who elude me even now
I must set it free
Without knowing exactly how

I must redefine
What happiness holds in my mind
And feel it in me
The might to fight my own confined

What right have I to ask from you
The right to let me start anew?
You have nothing left
You have nothing on me

What have you now to share with me
That would give any guarantee?
I want nothing left
I want nothing you’d be