Why I Fight

what is this
this can’t be still
this high in
this whim from within
high time I tried
to find my
I keep climbing
on this drive
to no end
with no end
in sight
I fight
the will of flight
instead of staying
and facing
the night
I write
to define my mind’s
truest dear
I fear
I might
not own the insight
but I will try
to win the fight
and with luck in time
might fulfill
my right
walk of life

Drops of Love

Falling like drops of love
To softly pierce my face
As from heaven above
To this mortal place

I fear I’ve lost some
Of that forgotten grace
That transforms each one
Into a wondrous space

So envelope me in
That emphatic embrace
And remind me still
That such beauty has bass

For from such moments
Of epiphanic pace
Can come drops of love
That leave a lasting trace

Hungry Again

Feeling far away
Is to be examined
Is to be explored
To understand
To give it more
Worth than present
Dislike may afford

Feeling dismissed
Is a chance to feel
Is a chance to reveal
How I’d make it real
And not for some other
For which I have no
Power to heal

Feeling uninspired
Is lack of motivation
Is the unknown hiding
But light of navigation
Can be found in writing
Feeling myself once again
Hungry for the right thing

Panic Attack

I remember being in here
I remember the fear
When such ceased me
I’d freeze
I’d flee here
Blank but for tears
Please tell me what steers
When trying to breathe deeply
To placate the panic
But only comes out frantic
Collapsing to my knees
Here I see
I remember such manic
Loss of my pedantic
Hid out in the hygienic
But can it
Settle these shaky gears
Detect what disappears
It’s so unclear
Can it be here
What I seek
What I revere
As I try to can it
There appear my peers
Dangerously near
Please let them not hear
My heavy here
As endless attacks hit
I battle such severe austere

Where Since I Have No Longer Gone

I’m standing just outside of you
A bitter breeze that freezes me
I see their faces, strong and still
But I must go and leave them be

I’m walking down this quiet road
With lights that flicker off and on
They watch me as I walk alone
Where since I have no longer gone

I’m swimming in a see of dreams
The breeze is warm now, softly comes
It sends happiness through my veins
And sighs from top to toes to thumbs

You see I came, I saw, I went
And silently the world goes on
And still that road stands blinking there
Where since I have no longer gone

Not I

Oh aye when thy eyes have seen
All I’ve not yet with my own
I’ll ere henceforth idle between
What my eyes and I have known

For not a night will pass in peace
As I know naught what’s not been seen
The nervous knots in me increase
As not knowing, I nod between

I Am That

I am many things
But these are not important
I can call myself by names
But titles matter not

Who I am upon this earth
Is not of matter, but rather mirth
I am the laughter in my heart
That tells of truth worlds apart

I am the way a smile shines
I am the silence that unwinds
I am when two hearts intersect
I am when seeking to connect

The calm that comes with time
When sharing in sublime
When mind honors the divine
When love is, I am That

Let It Go

Can you blame me for this?
I know it’s my fault
But fault is infinite
And impossible to solve

So let that go then
Let it not be the last
We spoke our piece each
But no peace has amassed

So don’t take it with you
as you run from this trial
for if you go on laying blame
you’ll lose yourself in denial

And I in my own right
Will just move on after awhile

Beware My Heart

The only heart I’ve ever known
My only constant truth
Is that this heart is black and bruised
Locked up and anger-infused
All because of you.

And if you cared or ever dared
To give me an excuse
You’d learn that I’ve gone cold inside
All hope for love or peace denied
And all romance refused.

As days have passed and time elapsed
Still reign my heart’s issues
That no man again may give me pain
And so I wallow in endless rain
In this prison that I choose.

So be wary if you take aim
And tread in tougher shoes
For I still hold that none less so bold
May ever chance to weather this cold
And at end, only ever lose.

A Bed of Lonely

Luck be a lady
Fate be my friend
Give me a warning
of how this will end

I’ve made my bed such
and must lie in its wake
So forgive me my greed
as I give not what I take

The error is my own
and I’ll pay for such pain
Cuz I’ve given up another
and lonely still remain